So apparently if you decide that you want to spend a quiet evening at home with your man, you MUST be sick or DYING. EXCUSE me for taking a night to be with my man.

I am really getting fed up with all the drama that has been circulating around here lately.

I think I may take a second and freaking rant, okay? I try NOT to get emo, get bitchy or complain too much. I tend to keep my personal life, oh I don't know, PERSONAL?

Really, it's just that I am really tired. Tired physically, tired emotionally, and tired mentally. I'm getting to a point where I really am trying to see who my real supporters are, who I really can call a friend. People that just yesterday I thought I could trust or turn too... I am finding that they are actually just using me.

I am tired of just being a ride for people when they need to go somewhere.

I am tired of people walking all over me.

I am REALLY tired of people complaining about shit, when they really don't have much to complain about.

Now, I don't look for sympathy, I don't try to get attention for myself, and I really hate when people think they have to pity me, but some people bitch and moan about some really pathetic shit. Boyfriends, girlfriends and high school drama can't define who you are and your life. If you are upset that you life with your momma, MOVE OUT. I did at 17. I moved out... got a freaking job, got an education and GOT OVER IT. Why is that so hard?

I'm not trying to take anything out on anyone particular. Not trying to "call anyone out", bitch at anyone or be personal, but really... the people I've been surrounding myself with lately are FAKE... have nothing better to do with their lives than get drunk, act immature, endanger themselves, seclude others, use people, and just all together complain about their lives when really... they have it better than they think.

I wish I had friends who just wanted to be around me. When is the last time someone called and asked me to go to a movie with them? Go hang out? Go to a party and have a good time? Not in a long damn time. Once in a while I like to get out and have a good time too.

I don't know. Maybe I'm too old... in mind... for people that I hang around. I gained some experience, had some good times and now I'm over it.

Really, this is kind of a wake up call.


I'll be going through my friends list.

If you get cut... well, I'm sorry... I guess it's probably because WE NEVER TALK, NEVER DO ANYTHING TOGETHER AND REALLY ARN'T CLOSE ENOUGH. If I was your friend, then we'd act like it once in a while then wouldn't we?

Sorry... If some other, "older", more "wiser" people can go through their "emo" phases... then why can't I?

Besides... no one seems to notice that MAYBE I"M DEALING WITH SOME SHIT TOO RIGHT NOW.

Not like my baby died a year ago in March or anything.

Christ.

Bastards.

Insensitive assholes.

(not specific to any of you.... that's for someone who doesn't even HAVE a myspace, LJ or Facebook... thankyouverymuch)

Peace be with ya'll... I have some great people I know, that I get along with WHEN I SEE THEM and a few really special friends.

Love to you guys... really.

<3 Casey