So, finally my internet decides to work.

I don't know what to do.

Should I just give up?  I see all of these folks with their great pictures and I feel so shitty about myself.  I am not even half as good as these people. 

I can't get a job doing what I love.

I'm not good enough for these people. 

How am I ever supposed to gain any experience in my field when no one will hire you unless you have experience?  It doesn't make sense.  I HAVE EXPERIENCE.  I work my ass off, I try my best, but it's never good enough.

What am I going to do?  I just want to take pictures.  Why is it that I am never as good as the next person?  Why am i always just one step below someone?  Am I good at anything?

I hate this.

I hate me.

I just want to go to bed.

Fuck it.

I hate this.

I am going to bed.

Rocky doesn't need me anyway.

Fuck it.